So… The manuscript is done, and now, on to reading through it to make subtle changes before handing my baby off to the betas. Does this overwhelming feeling of fear ever go away? I’m thinking… probably not. I think sending something you poured hours upon hours over, tears, laughter, sleepless nights, and numb fingers into, may be one of the scariest things I do before releasing my books into the wild. Well, for me anyway. Anyone else have that same feeling? I know, I know, this is part of the process, and obviously it has to be done. Doesn’t mean I can’t still have a reasonable sense of dread. Am I right?
I’m still very much a baby fawn in this self publishing world, and some days, I feel my aspirations may be higher than they should be. Is that why they always tell you to “Reach for the stars”? Or another good one, “If your dreams don’t scare you, they aren’t big enough.” What if… what if your dreams do scare you? What if that’s all they ever will become? A risk worth taking? Perhaps it is. I won’t lie and say writing doesn’t sometimes feel like an absolute chore – it can. However, it’s a chore-like rarity I would grab any day over a life where I feel completely unfulfilled.
Isn’t that the beauty of doing things you love? Doing work that rarely feels as such, and has your fulfillment cup running over? Food for thought? ;)
Lastly, with the fear of reading through, there is also that pesky release date to have your sh*t together for. 2/5/2015. *breathes* I can do this.
Good night WP friends!