Reading through the Manuscript… *Eyes wide with fear*

Graphic Cred: Nelani Palomino

Graphic Cred: Nelani Palomino

So… The manuscript is done, and now, on to reading through it to make subtle changes before handing my baby off to the betas. Does this overwhelming feeling of fear ever go away? I’m thinking… probably not. I think sending something you poured hours upon hours over, tears, laughter, sleepless nights, and numb fingers into, may be one of the scariest things I do before releasing my books into the wild. Well, for me anyway. Anyone else have that same feeling? I know, I know, this is part of the process, and obviously it has to be done. Doesn’t mean I can’t still have a reasonable sense of dread. Am I right?

I’m still very much a baby fawn in this self publishing world, and some days, I feel my aspirations may be higher than they should be. Is that why they always tell you to “Reach for the stars”? Or another good one, “If your dreams don’t scare you, they aren’t big enough.” What if… what if your dreams do scare you? What if that’s all they ever will become? A risk worth taking? Perhaps it is. I won’t lie and say writing doesn’t sometimes feel like an absolute chore – it can. However, it’s a chore-like rarity I would grab any day over a life where I feel completely unfulfilled.

Isn’t that the beauty of doing things you love? Doing work that rarely feels as such, and has your fulfillment cup running over? Food for thought? ;)

Lastly, with the fear of reading through, there is also that pesky release date to have your sh*t together for. 2/5/2015. *breathes* I can do this.

Good night WP friends!

xx,
Mel

Good Karma?

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Photo Cred: MLD

I came into work the other day, (I work pretty early days) and saw this sticky note on my monitor. I still have no clue who it was that put it there, but, needless to say, I had a pretty awesome day. :)

Is there such a thing as good karma? I know the whole “do unto others as you want done unto you” deal, but let’s face it, sometimes people deserve a good old piss off. Am I right?? It’s not necessarily easy to wish the best for someone who betrays you, or keep your head up when your life is pouring down rain, and everywhere else seems sunny. I feel like it’s raining in my life from time to time, okay, maybe hailing. The stress of being an adult and what not. However, I like to get through it by trying to make someone else’s day a little better.

All that to bring me to this mystery messenger. Apparently, I’ve brightened someone’s day. In the business I work in, the hours are long, the people are rude, and the language freely flows along the lines of the “f” bomb. I myself am not opposed to the word, however, it’s nice to know that someone out there, appreciates the efforts and comedic performances I try to bestow on the long work days.

Tell me, has anyone ever put a smile on your face at any given time when you were having a less than stellar day?

xx,
Mel

“THE END”

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…Or is it? As a writer, no words feel sweeter to me, than when I type “The End”. I know it’s not necessarily the end, (rewrites, edits, more rewrites, etc.) but the initial end is done. As in, no more content needs to be added to push the story line further. The story has ended! *cue dancing and cheering*

I don’t know if I’m the only one who actually misses the characters that occupy the mind for such long periods of time, but I do. I have one more book left in this series, but, I needed to take a break and try my hand at a different genre. Which one? I’m going to keep that a mystery for now ;)

So friends, although I’m exhausted from banging out over 11K words this weekend to reach the finish line, I am so stoked. I have finished my second full length novel, whilst holding down a 50+ hour a week job.

Yes, I’m kinda, sorta, maybe tooting my own horn, but it’s deserved! Right?….Am I right? :)

xx,
Mel

Ahhh!… The Pressure!

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Okay, so the title of this post may be a little dramatic, but still. I am currently working on finishing my second book (Ending a Torn Past). It’s taken me over a year to get to the almost finish line, and with a full time job, it all seems to be coming ever so quickly. I’m excited that I’m as close to finishing as I am, but getting to the point of where you type “The End” doesn’t necessarily make it so.

Edits, rewrites, more edits, plot changes, more edits, more rewrites, read, reread again, have betas, marketing, etc… You get the point, right? Right. :) As stressful as the process is (or at least can be), I enjoy the thrill of it.

Ensue panic for upcoming release day! So, yes, the pressure is on. I have my own internal goal for when I want to type “The End” and start the beginning of the end process. When those two beautiful words are typed, I will dance with joy, cry with celebration, and smile with accomplishment. When I type those words, trust me there will be a post!

Anyone else have a process in which stresses you out, but, in the best way possible? Comment below and let me know. ;)

xx,
Mel

I. Love. Movies.

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This post is simply exactly what the title states. I love movies. LOVE them. I have some friends that find it boring, or don’t like crowds, or could care less about watching it on the big screen. I will admit, there are drawbacks to watching a movie when it first comes to the big screen. My main complaint would be other people who come to talk, not watch. It can ruin a movie going experience, but not enough for me to hate going. I’m not sure why I feel so strongly about it, but I did work at a movie theater for a time. I know the ins and outs (at least of the specific one I worked at), and it can be such a fun place to work. Besides..FREE MOVIES! (Again where I worked specifically) With the pricing the way it is now, who wouldn’t want that perk. Am I right?

As much as I find that Tampa can be a bit boring, we do have what is pictured above. The Tampa Theatre. I haven’t gone as much as I would like to, but I am making up for lost time. It is hands down one of the most architecturally stunning buildings I’ve ever seen. It has such an old world charm to it. Get this, there is even an organ player before your showing begins.

How cool is that? I mean, seriously.

Recently, I went to see the original Scream film there. It was amazing. It was so weird being back in theaters to watch that movie again. However, it brought back such great memories. Being a teenager and actually sneaking into the first one. The thrill of it all. :)

Do any of you have really epic movie theaters you can go to? Do you even enjoy going to the movies?

I will also add that I am no genre snob, either. I will watch anything. In fact, I just saw Dracula: Untold. It was such a great film. The cinematography, the actors, the affects. All of it was gold. Watching any genre has its perks, especially since I have a few friends who are genre specific ;) Any of you willing to give any genre a shot?

So that’s it folks. I love movies. Period. The end. I may spend too much time entertaining myself that way, but that’s okay…isn’t it?

I know i’m full of questions, but that’s how you build friendships! I dig it.

xx,
Mel

My After Hours Work Space

Photo Cred: Me

Photo Cred: Me

My work space is what continually inspires me. It changes so often (as my tastes do) so I wanted to share what gets me motivated. I have my “regular job” which consists of 10.5 hour days. But, when I come home to my “dream job”, this is what I come to. I wanted to maintain a clean and sophisticated work space to let my ideas flow, and to bring as much serenity as possible to wind down and focus on creating stories.

Where do you all write? Find peace? Inspiration? Read? Work at home?

xx,
Mel <3